Friday, January 16, 2009
new year new TARGET...hmm my target is a new bag ,shoe and also perhaps...and oversea trip during june or july hope my wish can come true...sace money as i go haha....shall start saving to pamper myself.....now endure and work....
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Alawys My Darlin [:
10:22 AM
Saturday, January 10, 2009
day by day past...haiz... same feeling down haiz... miss the days so much on my way home every day i see couples around haiz... how i wish i could be like them haiz... it made mi envy them haiz... out of words to say... nvm no thought of highlighting my hair but dun wanna spoil my hair although its already spoil when i rebond hmm cutting hair soon two more days shld be not dyeing why no money haiz... i miss u so much but yet we have so little time to meet haiz... u still sick haiz... haiz i wish i need not work...have been enduring haiz... they joke mi all kinds of funny jokes abt mi haiz... then wif no reason kanna scold and his bad attitude thinkgin every one owe him money jus realli cant standhaiz how i wish i could jus hand over the letter and quit haiz jus another 5 month i endure nvm i'll jus keep quiet as usual putting on a smile actting happy haiz... i wish i wish i wish ........................
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Alawys My Darlin [:
8:31 AM
Friday, January 09, 2009
today finally seen him haiz...he's sick very sick haiz.. ask him go see doc he says wait til his mother come home bring him go haiz...nite time mother came back say tml see how then bring him he has been having fever up and down then stomach aches haiz... worry for him but wat can i do haiz..... pretty up sad i couldnt stop acting normal haiz... being to keep quiet haiz....i wish i gt more time to spend wif him now onli once week once haiz... i realli miss him so much but we jus has little time haiz....feeling unhappy haiz... all i wan is ur pei pan haiz... gt money but not happy haiz... wats de use of keep working i wish i coukd stop working those days at kl was so fun could have him all day long beside mi sob haiz.... we seems to be far away from each other haiz.... some thing pushing mi to give up haiz... i dun wish to end this relationship haiz....putting a smile every day is tiring
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Alawys My Darlin [:
9:37 AM
Thursday, January 08, 2009
haiz... still feeling down...haiz... as usual acted normal....our time doesnt meet haiz...jiu cannot wei wo spare more time haiz....morning u gt sch afternoon i need to work onli nite then u either tired or late le or ur mother haiz...if not my off day one and onli off day u will eother gt stuff haiz.... perhaps its mi haiz... i dun noe how to give u my understanding haiz... i knew things will happen haiz...in the begining i knew haiz... as usual i will be sad haiz... i jus wish we could have more time together haiz... but haiz... when i'm alone and i see couple or see friends i felt so sad haizz i saw xue lian jus now wif her bf haiz... happily haiz... i envy so much haiz... decided to give up haiz...these few day i feel emptyness haiz...is it so hard for u to pei he wo haiz... i grumble more u will again say u wan my little understanding haiz....ok i will keep quiet ok... any thing also wont say wnhait grunble or complain to le ok
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Alawys My Darlin [:
8:46 AM
Wednesday, January 07, 2009
hmm shall spring clean my blog.... cos it has spider web on it....well...had a bad christmas cos one day before eve i had a great stomach ache and the pain lasted for 5 days before i recover with eating all kinds of medic...christmas eve i couldnt go any where but at home...my dear enjoying at friends hse tat make mi felt sad....cos wat i can eat is onli light stuff and its christmas...nvm on the day of christmas went to kelly hse bbq and classmate gathering then on new year eve gathering too watch fire works and headed home one the second day of new year my trip to KL... i had lots of fun how i wish oi could enjoy again... bought lot s of stuff... hmm now back to wt i actually wanna blog today...there seems alot of stuff i wanna say but i jus dunnoe how to say... wat to say... haiz... i acted happy...i pretended normal as i'm happy but bottom of my heart i'm not dunnoe wat to say haiz...u said u wan little understanding and time...ok got it haiz...feeling weird i need a company.... haiz...feel bored feel empty i wish i could go back to the past where i can always go out now i trap in work and work no where but work haiz... when i'm free u are not free when my friends are free meeting i'm busy working hiz.... i wanna a long break when.... can i haiz... my off day i rox at home thinking wat can i do bored at home no one pei mi u are busy in sch teacher ask u go u jiu agree and go haiz... cannot break promise haiz...some times i wat other say u wil always do and help them and wat i ask for will always be a no most of the time haiz...u force mi asking u which is more important then now u said u wan little understanding and time haiz....ask urself 1 mth how many camps how many camp fire how many scouts stuff haiz....perhars its all mi haiz...shall keep quiet bah.....shh.....haiz... i'm tired and exhausted i wish to have more fun
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Alawys My Darlin [:
7:28 AM
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
hmm i've make a pass to let onli some close friends to see my blog hmm actually i jus didnt wan my classmates to see onli....hmm dunnoe why i jus feel so unhappy haiz...sorry dear how ever hard u try makign mi in the end when i'm suppose to go home i'm not happy again...haiz...i also dunnnoe why i thought am i walking to towards the path of depression...dear said no lar dun any how think...ya perhaps too stress....must relaz... but how too...nvm i learn and try...hmm today i skip sch...didnt wanna go sch and face my classmates so went out wif dear see him work then we when out to have a big feast...haha but in the end same...i'm still not happy...haiz.. sorry my tired dear....still in moody mood....
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Alawys My Darlin [:
6:11 AM
Monday, November 17, 2008
i'll jus keep quiet.....haiz...shall be in silent....everyone showing attitude if not... not happy every thing my fault...i wish i could run far far far away....be all alone.....haiz.. i dun wish to go sch and work but still have to go....i wanna cry all out but i cant....haiz...who to cry to who to shout to...haiz....darlin been busy not gonna trouble him...haiz...i'll jus keep quiet
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Alawys My Darlin [:
6:37 AM
Sunday, November 16, 2008
lots of things to say in my heart...seems to be lots of things i couldnt say but jus leaving it in my heart....nvm ....dun wanna write here i'm gonna change my blog soon haiz....these two weeks lot of things happen....last last wed father admited to hospital....tyhe last thu he went for operation BYPASS....last few dayshe in icu recovering...its so heart pain see him like this i nearly cry but hold back....tml gonna go see him hmm he has change ward already...haiz....
darlin...i will not cry in front of u...u run away...i jus remain silent.....muack
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Alawys My Darlin [:
8:48 AM
Monday, November 10, 2008
its been a tired week end...i'm tired felt like skipping sch tml but...haiz...too lazy i'm jus realli tired out...but i must stay evens trong...if i'm tired my mother is even more tired then mi so ...but i'm realli tired and lazy to blog le.... jus wish for thur a successful one prayed to god...he will be fine.....
darlin...thx for being by myside thx i need u by myside i'm tired realli tired jus wish to slp on ur leg...every tired moment.....
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Alawys My Darlin [:
7:04 AM
Sunday, October 26, 2008
hmm today is a ph no sch yeah...finally get to rest felt so tired gonna have fun today hmm wake up in morning cant slp so came using com...lots of thing to blog but lazy to write so hmm nvm....jus now nose bleed guess too heaty liao....hmm nvm....long time ever since i nose bleed haha ok shall stop here.....bye....wish mi luck
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Alawys My Darlin [:
9:08 PM